VeE

Sunday, March 18, 2012

还要痛苦到几时。。。{9:46 PM}

I've been sleeping too much on the days I'm not working. Can't be bothered to do anything at all. Read an article on symptoms of depression. Pretty sure that I fall into that category. I've been having difficulties trying to fall asleep and when I do fall asleep, I jerk awake at 5am, 6am, when the clock reaches 7am, I'm too tired to wake up. The lavender aromatherapy method is not working.

Lost interest in doing anything. Attempt to save myself by organising meet-ups or attending dinners. I'm usually dead tired when I meet up for dinner. I'm trying to save myself.

Managed to convince myself to get out of the house on Saturday. Passed by a hair salon and I did something on impulse. Dyed my hair.

It's a weird colour now. Bright at the top and dull at the bottom.

Didn't manage to cheer me up.

Removed the gelish manicure and the nail varnish destroyed my phone casing. Felt like crap.

I don't enjoy what I used to do. I no longer wear dresses or put on make up to work. Bascially, I don't put much emphasis on how I look anymore. This is very unusual for a vainpot like me. I'm a vainpot.

I'm finding. I know I can't be picky. But I need something similar which can support my lifestyle.

还要痛苦到几时。。。

Signing off. VeE

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Thursday, March 15, 2012

I wanna get out of here{11:57 PM}

Got my lazy ass of the bed to use my lappy. I won't have turned on my lappy if Gaston didn't informed me that the new OS5.1 save battery life. So here I am updating my OS which is taking 2 hours to download. It hasn't even started updating yet. Had some time to upload photos though.

Been addicted to booze these days. Managed to stay off the alcohol for 1.5 weeks. Going to make sure that I don't start drinking until a month later. One thing I like about alcohol is that I can go straight to bed without thinking of work. It's kind of a luxury to be able to do that. I spent most of the night worrying about tomorrow. It sucks. Big time.

Trying to inject some life into my monotonous routine.

Met up with Yanru and Kelvin for dinner after work on a Friday. I think that was 2 weeks ago. Ended work at 9 plus and cabbed down. They were really nice to wait for me for dinner. Bet they were starving.

Tried the method of dressing up, attempting to wear dress and put on make up to work. It's not useful. I still feel lousy. Really lousy. A fake smile that you are looking at.

Celebrated Makaio's 1st birthday at a chocolate bar. Chocolate! Had a little bit of sugar rush that afternoon.

Big fellow and me.

Met up with Anqi after her Japan trip. I need a holiday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did something crazy that night. Booking a 10.45pm show when we were dying to sleep. Shoot me.

Organised another class gathering. It's either everyone drives or none drives. haha.

Had another birthday celebration today. Spent my day playing with the kids and my 2 crazy biting kids. How nice is their childhood.

Right now my phone is at the verifying software stage. I think there's another hour more to go. Yours Truly is so drowsy with her flu medicine now. -_-" going to start blabbering nonsense soon. And bloody hell, there's work tomorrow.