I've been sleeping too much on the days I'm not working. Can't be bothered to do anything at all. Read an article on symptoms of depression. Pretty sure that I fall into that category. I've been having difficulties trying to fall asleep and when I do fall asleep, I jerk awake at 5am, 6am, when the clock reaches 7am, I'm too tired to wake up. The lavender aromatherapy method is not working.

Lost interest in doing anything. Attempt to save myself by organising meet-ups or attending dinners. I'm usually dead tired when I meet up for dinner. I'm trying to save myself.

Managed to convince myself to get out of the house on Saturday. Passed by a hair salon and I did something on impulse. Dyed my hair.

It's a weird colour now. Bright at the top and dull at the bottom.

Didn't manage to cheer me up.

Removed the gelish manicure and the nail varnish destroyed my phone casing. Felt like crap.

I don't enjoy what I used to do. I no longer wear dresses or put on make up to work. Bascially, I don't put much emphasis on how I look anymore. This is very unusual for a vainpot like me. I'm a vainpot.

I'm finding. I know I can't be picky. But I need something similar which can support my lifestyle.

还要痛苦到几时。。。